1970
2月中旬，伊麗莎白寫信給Baumann醫生，提到自己很想離開巴西，然而Suzanne卻想留下來，雖然她在鎮上的生活並不十分順利。伊麗莎白還提到，她越來越懷念和蘿塔往日快樂的時光：
...X.Y. (指Suzanne) likes it here, I can't see why - well, I think she likes all this building, and re-constructing -I don't; I just want things done, and peaceful, and a little order at last. （Suzanne想留在巴西）
...If I get that award, I thought it might be enough to make a quick trip to the U.S. I need some dentistry, eyeglasses, medicines, and certainly I need a change. I'm afraid X.Y. would object strenuously. （伊麗莎白想回美國，但Suzanne不想回去，後來伊麗莎白推出嚇人的陰謀論）Well, we'll see, and it probably won't happen, anyway. In fact, I see no end to it all.
I try to keep remembering that I had about 15 really happy years until Lota got so sick - and I should be grateful - most people don't have that much, I know. But since she died, Anny （Baumann醫生的名字）- I just don't seem to care whether I live or die. I seem to miss her more every day of my life. (對蘿塔懷念日益加深） I try hard to live in the present, as everyone always says - but the present is so hideous to me. I wish I could shake all this off and enjoy things a bit more - but I can't seem to. I must get out of this country, and never come back to it. X.Y. doesn't understand this at all, of course, and I don't talk about it, naturally.....
